I hate that things change. Sure, its not always for the worst, but still. I'm not fond of it. Anyone who knows me knows that I hate making decisions. Its because, once you do, you can't go back, and things change. I've lost a lot of really good friends, and feel like I'm losing more, too. But the whole main point of this is one big fact: I used to be a super hero once. Sure, I didn't have an awesome suit, or a sweet ride. But I was a super hero nonetheless. Well, part of one anyway. It was a symbiotic situation, if you will. And we were fanfreakingtastic. We shared the same thoughts, felt the same things, and overall, were just wonderfully in-tune. Life was great, and our bond even greater. Or so I thought.
But then, something happened, "shit went down" as the kids say, and the bonds that once held the universe in check broke. And now - now its nothing but a painful loss no one wants to talk about, like a child lost between a now broken couple. Actually, that describes it very well. But even if one aspect didn't work, I still would have liked what was one of the single greatest friendships I've ever had to have not dissipated so easily. But, I suppose I've really only myself to blame. I just really miss it, and that's a feeling that hasn't gone away. If anything, it keeps growing. I just want to be part of that super hero again. It saddens me - quite literally - that I may have lost something as great as that forever. I just hope that it can at least be a fragment of what it once was, oh so long ago....
